Last week my brain went nope

I know I’ve been writing a lot about my state of mind lately, but to be honest that is the only thing I have to write about now. While the titleĀ of this post is pretty self-explanatory I feel like I should write about what happened, so you know, help with the healing process or whatever.

For a shit ton of reasons my mind has been all over the place on the past few months. So I’ve been a lot more anxious than I used to be, followed by moments of total apathy. But last sunday, oh boy, last sunday was crazy!

Well, not really, I basically felt really sad out of nowhere and started crying in my bedroom alone. The thing that showed me how desperate I felt in that moment was that I called my mom crying just to have some company over the phone. You might be thinking that this isn’t crazy at all, we all feel overwhelmed and call someone sometimes.

The thing with me is that I don’t. I don’t tell the people around me about my feelings or what makes me sad, even my mom. Maybe I’m getting better at this, I’d like to think that I am at least trying. But that episode was weird, I just took a shower and watched Freaks and Geeks for the rest of the day. The week went by ok, and better than expected.

Who knows what my mind will have for this week, it has been full of surprises.

So here is a relaxing gif of dust to compensate for this mess of a post

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by Butteryplanet

See ya!

 

 

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